I Think I Need to Say Goodbye for a (Short) While
I didn’t know I was going to be writing any of this. I was sitting on a blank text post, waiting to write something, when I found myself typing the title. And it feels right.
I got into tumblr in July of 2010 and while I’ve warned of fewer posts over vacations, I’ve never made the choice to leave it. The idea was too absurd. I like to write, a lot, badly, about myself, and here is where I come to do it. It’s also one of those things I check when I wake up, through the day, and go to bed. I’m surrounded by incredible artists and personalities and all around genuine and delightful people (I don’t say much but believe me, I’m in awe of you). Why would I want to give that up?
I don’t. I just think I need to take a little break. I’m going to keep writing and saving posts in word docs, and then I’ll throw them up when I come back. I’m a little concerned at how much trouble I’m having with schoolwork and reading/note taking in general. I’m too defensive of my internet forays to call any of them time wasters. But over the past week I’ve been cutting back on a lot of the things that take time away from things I should be focusing on. So twitter and tumblr are bearing the brunt of this exercise. I know I’m going to miss out on some excellent posts, but I think I have to give this a try.
I honestly don’t expect to be gone for more than a few weeks. I’d guess about a month. All that said, I could end up back here in a few days. But I don’t think so. I’m logging out and staying that way.
So much of what I do online has a Community spin. The two live journals I visit, most of the things on the dashboard, a lot of the people I follow on twitter - because I don’t have Community friends in the “real” world, I’ve found them here (even if it’s just from a weird, silent stalker perspective). But I’ve got to stop putting so much mental energy into this show, at least for right now. With the hiatus, and for a lot of more complicated reasons, many of which have little to do with the show but just enough, I’ve got to separate myself for a little bit.
See you when I see you.
